17 Days

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It's  a two thimble night as you're stuck on your flight 

Going hours and miles away
You're in some other place while I dream of your face 

AndI'm fading into the day

You're my match, you're my muse, you're the poison I choose

You're the light from my phone in the night
You're the calm, you're the storm, you're what keeps me warm 

When the darkness fades into the light

I promised I'd write, every day, every night

All the secrets that cower inside of me
I'll make up for the days, in some similar ways,

Scrawling words this digital diary

I'm not sure that I've ever been this keen or clever -  

You draw words from me, deep from this well,
But I cannot pretend that I want it to end

(And it can't  s'far as my heart can tell)

See, my heart and my mind? Well they fight all the time

But you know, in the end who will win
You say, "Give me your mind, and I'll give you mine"

As you're holding my heart with a grin.

While you're walking the streets, as your "hollow" heart beats,

I can tell you it won't beat alone
Cause by now it's quite clear I'll be waiting right here
When you find your way back to this home
 

    Here are 17 ways that I love you

    In these 17 days that I wait

In my eyes there is no one above you,

What can I say?

 

I'm tired, I'm sick, won't you kidnap me quick 

Show me many a beautiful place
We will see all the sights as we spend all the nights 

Locked in each other's embrace

Well the hours, they creep as you're fighting off sleep 

Just to drink down each moment we steal
Watching each line on your face as you try 

To mask things you could never conceal
 

Trace back to your eyes that could never disguise

All the fury and fire within
I could swim in those pools, could steal those emerald jewels

And never return them again
 

"Love me, no punches",  and I'll love you bunches

But maybe a bite now and then
I'm tough but I'm gentle; a touch, maybe, mental

But you'll won't have love like this again
 

I love you bunches, but don't pull your punches 

I long for each scrape and each bruise
I need every slap, every stroke, every smack 

To remind me of my right to choose
 

Blood-soaked and shrouded, the future is clouded

But as long as you love me it's clear
You got me, you get me, as long as you let me,

I'll always have my love waiting right here

 

Here are 17 ways that I love you

In these 17 days that you’re gone

In my heart there is no one above you,

What could go wrong

Awake and alone with my ear to my phone 

Playing melodies distant but true
The intent in your voice fights a pain without choice

But I'm set to sink deeper in you

I want all your bad, all your ugly, your sad  

All your hopes, all your fears, all your dreams
I'll consume all your pain as you open your veins 

And bleed out all your dark, scarlet screams

I'll pretend that you're here as I'm fighting off tears

Lost in thought as I'm sprawled 'cross your bed

There is no way to sleep as I hear your phone beep

Echoing through my poor, worried head
 

I'm constantly caught 'tween the light and the dark 

And the glimpses that I let you see
I'm not sure that Im willing to let you catch this spilling 

Emotion that’s inside of me

Fuck all this timing, it never aligning,  

The hours I wait for a word

My doubt is consuming; the worst always looming 

Until I hear "sup babygirl"
 

Here are 17 ways that I love you

In these 17 days that I wait

In my heart there is no one above you

What can I say

This last ones by hand-  in six hours, you'll land

I can barely contain my excitement
After seventeen days navigating this maze 

I admit that I'm anxious, but frightened

You've  morphed me, you've changed me, completely rearranged me

What's left is right, up's become down
Through all consolations, anguish and affirmations, 

All I know is I need you around

It has felt Like a year that you haven't been here

So I'm not sure how it all will play out
But these few things left true- I will always love you

That is one thing I never could doubt 

 

Here are 17 ways that I love you

In those 17 days you were gone

In my soul there is nothing but to love you,

What could go wrong